If all of you are able to transcend these urges to breathe, how come you don't reach samba and blackout regularly? (I think i read eric saying he did)
Is it because the next time the urges come along they really are too intense to bear?
I'm learning a lot about the internal cognitions and sensations involved with overcoming these urges by sorta using introspection while I try to reach contractions
I think it's partially enduring pain (enduring the crests), and partially ignoring the instinctual urge to breathe (which is the only salient process during the troughs)
the instincts themselves are not painful, but more like a voice inside your head telling you to breathe - it's that intangible fear and dread that has no explicit physiological pain component - i'm getting better at dealing with this part, but each crest gets worse and worse - hopefully just a matter of time before i get it.
would really appreciate some other personal experiences that mirror this.
Marwan
