is t just me or what...?

[vali]

is it just me or what...?

from some time i felt in some depression...
i find myself going with my friends at the sea to do scuba-diving and when i-m to dive in, i rennounced...
it is like i don-t enjoy scuba enymore....
all that i want is to go down in apnea...
when i am at the dive center with my diver friends, i devellope an unussual state of "not fit in the group"....i stay somwhere retired from theyr discussions and activities, althought when someone ask me some advice about how to prepare the scuba gear, i talk to him and is ok....
i'm feeling like i'm allone, even i'm not...
last weekend i did some mullet hunting and i was thinking under water: many of my friend want to start hunting, but do they know how stealth they must act?
do they know that hunting and apneea is not just possing in front of the camera with the fish, or telling how deep can they go?
do the word "SILENCE" mean anything to them?
...................
so!
is just me or what?

 

[blueface]

Re: is it just me or what...?

from some time i felt in some depression...
i find myself going with my friends at the sea to do scuba-diving and when i-m to dive in, i rennounced...
it is like i don-t enjoy scuba enymore....
all that i want is to go down in apnea...
when i am at the dive center with my diver friends, i devellope an unussual state of "not fit in the group"....i stay somwhere retired from theyr discussions and activities, althought when someone ask me some advice about how to prepare the scuba gear, i talk to him and is ok....
i'm feeling like i'm allone, even i'm not...
last weekend i did some mullet hunting and i was thinking under water: many of my friend want to start hunting, but do they know how stealth they must act?
do they know that hunting and apneea is not just possing in front of the camera with the fish, or telling how deep can they go?
do the word "SILENCE" mean anything to them?
...................
so!
is just me or what?

You are a freediver! Be Happy!

Don't hang around with scuba divers. (That is the problem!):blackeye

I'm only kidding. I have a lot of friends who scuba dive and I don't understand them and they don't understand me. I just accept it.

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[Ale Andres]

Welcome Vali !

 

[podge]

Chill out a bit Vali, kick back have a few glass’s of whichever alcoholic poison rock’s your world and take absolute pleasure in the fact that you’re a bit different from the rest of the crowd.
Or find a real quite spot with next to no tide and just lay in the water and breath, real slow and steady until you reach the point of being almost asleep. I find that giving yourself an hour like this now and again really clears the mind.
Take it easy mate.

 

[vali]

ooo
i'm not a "loosing had" type...
is was just some thaughts in my mind...
i guess i'm to allone in this [to many scubadivers and no freedivers at all ]
thanks for reply

 

[aegean]

I hear you,i am forced to do scuba because its my job but there is nothing better than freediving

 

[Kars]

Hi Vali,

Great post, I'm sure many have the same experience.
Also great tips by the replies.

Well the disconnect is part of the changing that is happening inside you. And I think it speaks for you that you are observing your own.
People change, and I like that. I'm sure you'll find some apnea friends when you carry a monofin to the pool or beach. A couple of them would make a world's difference.
Many scuba diver people tent to share a love for technical diving gear, fish, data, etc. Whilst a freediver is much more focussed on his inner experience. We're talking about big and often subtle sensations. Things many scuba divers don't have interest or patience to discover. In short your interest has shifted, which is very enriching, and you feel it's time to find a fitting social network.

Podge I like your idea!

Love, Courage and Water,

Kars

 

[vali]

you have right...
however i must tell you that i practice apnea and underwater hunting since i was 8 years old
i first put scuba gear on me at 34 years old
now i-m almost a rescue scuba-diver [i only have the theoretical exam to pass]
so i see this scuba problem like something that was good, intriguing, but not anymore
i guess is something to do with the freedom sensation...FREEdiving-FREEdom...

 

[Kars]

Yes Vali,

though technology let us stay longer under water, it has a price. The confines are defined with the help of dive computers, the added weight, the vastly reduced manoeuvrability, the sound, the regulator mouthpiece, the tasks of handling buoyancy, the limited ascension speed. In all it is artificial, and If you know different it feels very artificial.

I started out scuba diving when I was 17, now 14 years ago. Then 7 years ago I discovered Freediving, since then my energy, attention and love has totally shifted to freediving.

Do you already have found some freediving buddies Vali?

Love, Courage and Water,

Kars

 

[vali]

all the buddy i can get cannot go deeper then 10m
however serge [who introduce me in this superb community] can go much deeper than me [if i remember well he can go at 40 or 45m]...
unfortunatelly, allthought he is from romania, like me, we didn't have the pleasure to met yet...
i hope to meet him because i know that i can learn many things
i've passed 41 from now, but i think that my age has nothing to do with my freediving goals
thanks for reply

 

[vali]

i remember that some 20 years ago i first saw the movie "le grand bleu" by luc beson...
i was very "touche" by this movie...
i recently saw it again and is one passage that i well remembered and i can't stop seeing the truth within...
is the part when R. arquette ask Mayol:

-what is the hardest part of a diving?
-the part when i am down bellow
-why?
-because i try to find a hell of a good reason to came back....and i don't find any...

 

[Kars]

Vali I just love how you write about your spiritual journey, your questions, doubts and feelings. With your progress come questions, leading to deeper ones. Your venturing on an increasingly narrower path, a way only a few dare go into.
With increasing understanding you'll face the world in a different way. Just like when you were young your views and understanding were more black and white. Knowledge often it can be scary, and you may not feel up to responsibility that goes with it. Like Podge recommended have some personal time, relax and you'll find the answers will come to you.
With greater understanding you'll also grow a more refined appreciation of everything that is beautiful. For me, I like to create things, see things and people grow, enjoy my senses reacting in subtle ways experiencing every detail.

When the season starts I have to relearn deep freediving. Once I've remembered the diving changes and becomes automated. This allows me to forget about the technical, and allows me to surrender to the ocean and feel and enjoy the wonderful sensations during the dive. Through the journey down, I've experienced the beauty of life, and with this renewed love I return, fly up towards the warm light.

Vali have a walk into nature, alone, take your time, and from within wisdom will come and give you direction.

Love, Courage and Water,

Kars

 

[vali]

i guess i have to simplify my life...
hard work, three jobs, a wife who hate water
i know that in the end only the time is the healer [and the water]

 

[Kars]

Hi Vali,
At the moment I'm struggling, being more-less unemployed, without income. I do not feel I have much to offer the world, and can be missed. I only know a small bit of many things, only few minor things backed up by paper. Not to mention my downsides. So all is not well with me. Donating some work to people I respect, helping friends, helping deeperblue acquaintances, doing something new, exercise, travel and nature helps. Also some personal goal can help. Cleaning up one's personal space helps. Writing down your thoughts to clean up the head and gain some overview. Clean up your relations, change or quit those who cost you energy. Anybody any other tips?

 

[Triton1715]

Vali,

Many can relate to your thoughts. Everyone that does anything in the water that I know is a scuba diver (myself included), but it's been a while since I really enjoyed scuba the way I used to when I was a kid. Part of it is just jading on my part as it seems that the requirements have been significantly relaxed to get a scuba cert from where they were 22 years ago when I went through it. I see a LOT of people getting in the water with barely a clue of what they are doing. . . like they took a resort course and never learned anything beyond rudimentary basics. They stumble and bumble around on dive boats, drag their dangling gear across reefs, can never seem to find their gauges,. . . in general just simply not very competent (or so it seems) and it makes me nervous diving around these types. It almost becomes a circus. As much as I love being on the reefs by any means possible (freediving/scuba), it's definitely been turning me off from scuba since I really got into freediving back in 2000.

Unfortunately, there just aren't very many freedivers around yet, but I think it is primarily due to lack of knowledge and information out there. I watched a video called "Blue Water Hunter" with Terry Maas back when I was a teenager and was instantly captivated by the idea of breathhold diving for minutes at a time. However, I thought it was a highly specialized skill that took years of intense training to develop into anything usable beyond generic "shallow-snorkeling fun". It wasn't until I saw a course offered in 2000 and was shocked to learn I could go from a 1:30 (maybe) breath hold to over 4 minutes in a week and dive to 50ft for 30+ seconds. If more people knew how much was possible without extreme training, I think many more people would pick up the sport. Maybe the sport just needs a good PR rep and a company or two that can really market the heck out of it to draw attention to it outside of competitions.

In the meantime, I sit here in cold, bitter Michigan dreaming of heading down to Grand Cayman on Monday where I will be right next to the reefs, but without a buddy. So close and yet so far.

 

[vali]

uau!
yesterday i reviewd some of my early posts here and i gave somke "likes" to some posts that i liked
Im glad that you still want to post here, because i find new things, but in the meantime [2009-2014] a lot have changed
I'm not allone anymore [see my signature]
Thanks guys!