Thanks Dave.
Kars, actually I don't think an "oh shit" moment is what defines narcosis for me. I had "oh shit" moments with and without narcosis, in various dives.
The effects I experience specifically with narcosis are: 1. disorientation, 2. a lack of rational thinking, and 3. an enhancement of any emotion.
Examples:
3. if I'm happy I feel ecstatic, if I get scared it translates into panic. In all the dives where I reached the panic state, it was because of a bad bottom turn so I was surprised by where I ended up after the turn (surprise -> fear -> panic). On the dives where I did a good bottom turn and was facing the expected way, the ascent was very nice, even when still narc'ed.
2. If I am able to think "that's OK, I just need to calm down", then I am most likely not narc'ed. I can think that someone is waiting for me at the surface, when I actually know that this person is not even in the water. If I my rope is the closest to the arch and I see another rope, I don't even realise that I'm facing the other way. I once finned up thinking I was getting further away from the surface.
1. On the way up, I often lose track of where I am. Worse: I can even forget completely about the rope and not see it, only seeing what's behind it.
In other words, narcosis removes my ability to: "recognise the futility of such emotion and revert to focusing on the things I CAN DO". Now it may not be the case with everyone, maybe I am more hit by narco than others. However I need to find a way around it, as I'm not exactly sure how I would react in case something unexpected happens that requires rational thinking. E.g. getting entangled in fishing line.