you know, you guys are all have good points. i assure you im being as safe as i can about it, and i do have add. i dont like to talk about it but hell its true. im not a real bad case where i cant pay attention in class, but sometimes during a movie halfway thourgh ill just be like "i dont feel like this anymore...". its mostly under control but my mind wanders, so contractions come, focus dies, and those kinds of things. i dont think any of you guys would want to completely lose your focus like 30m down, and neither do I. my best safety net is if i do lose focus, it wont be THAT bad. i guess add makes freediving a bit harder for me, so mabye thats why im trying to cut corners. not in the sport but cutting corners around my limits i guess?
as for meditation, i will be taking up ninjitsu soon (man i have a million interests. come to think about it maby thats why i cant focus and keep searching... damn everything makes sense now...), and that has alot of mental aspect. hoping for tai chi too. yoga isnt quite something id like to pursue. the bad part is, i can blank my mind, by concentrating on my breathing. kinda hard to do when freediving dontcha think? lol.
but ya, does this mean im doomed to never fully reach my limits cause my focus is rather unpredictable? i generaly get contractions early cause i start to think about it, and i dont know how you guys just act all calm and forget about them, i feel it 100% and take it like a man (who has no other choice

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my add isnt THAT bad (i hope?) but still, any other solutions? hypnosis seemed easy. less i can use hypnosis/ SM to get rid of the little add problem...
i guess it would make a bit more sense.. but for now i like my add, lets me learn like sooo much (i take up a new interest like everymonth and research everything until theres not much left to learn and i cant afford it, so i keep lookin. in the end ive gotten real smart, and i stuck with freediving cause i can actualy do it, i just need water, no real gear. alot of people say im realy smart in general, like i know alot about a very vast range of things, and id like to think its cause of that, so im not prepared to give it up YET, its a real advantage if you can channel it, mabye theres a way to do that instead... like a mental on/off button?)
and jimdoe2you, 1, 2, 3 seem alot like me. its not THAT bad is it (god i hope not, i thought i had it under control!)
i know your not (all) psychologists, but your older and wiser. advice?