Well Ed when I started back somewhere in December last year, it was winter over here.
I was also getting pretty blue (in the sad sence..) as my funds where drying up. I just got unemployed, car broke down, and some other setbacks like still not knowing what I want to do for a living ...
I remember that during fall and winter I'm more depressed than on average. Maybe I suffer from "winterdepression"?
Anyway I bumbed into this website, and red it through. I pretty ammazed, and just gave it a go. As Hira recomments I started of with a very short time, 10 seconds.
Key things are like: stand bare footed on soil (for conductivity), do not focus, surrender yourself to the sun, immagine the sun going through your eyes on to the back of your scull, only persorm at sunrise or sunset, where the sun is low and it's radiation is filterd by the air.
A few days went bye, and I suddenly I noticed a strange feeling in the lower back of my head. I had never felt it before, and it kept coming back every time I did a sungaze session. During a session, lasting about 1:30-2min at the time, the feeling set in and was strongest in the end. Appart from that strange feeling, which ebbed away in about 15 min. I felt cheered up, and more clear of mind.
After a week I went to my usual training in Eindhoven, 30KM on bike carrieng monofin suit, etc. And I noticed that I was VERY happy dispite al the troubles I were facing. Static was also very nice, and nothing could kill my happy mood. I'm nearly always happy when I go training, but this time it was different, deeper I think.
Anyway weeks went by, and the finacial rope tightend. It was a bad time, I even needed to borrow money from my parents. I was broke. I had to quit this sungazing thing, because of al the hassle and shìt I had to work through. It was still a sort of secret.
Halfway into february I started to try it again, and it helped. Pessimist views became positive ones. And I cheered up much.
Also my Sungazing skill improved. One day I stood on the roof, feeling drepressed after doing very dull dirty work, without a positive thing to look forward to. I noticed a almost institanious mood change, and I was surpriced. I gazed for a about 10 minutes and in the end I noticed that the energy did not only accumilated in the back of my head, but it now poored into the front part! wow! I was again convinced that it works, and returned to practice twice a day. My excuse is often I go for a fresh air walk.
People who see me standing and gazing often turn silent, and kids often comment "he doing some sort of yoga!"
I tell People who ask me what I'm doing that I enjoy the sun. When they ask why I tell them about "winter depression" etc.
My goal for now is not to live solely on the suns energy, but to discover al the other benefits.
It's a road of exploration.
The things I've so far experienced are:
Instant turning of my mood, from depressed to joyful.
Clearing my mind, loosing the abundant weight.
Gaining self love, After a few weeks I had it for the first time in my life, I really liked myself. Sounds dramatic but what a nice discovery, indeed a new insight! Maybe the very reason I made a website about me and my adventures
More energy though I'm not eating as much as I used to. Though I -can- still eat two portions easily, but hunger leaves me now after 1/2 a plate. Feeling more clean, healthier and pure throughout the body. As I eat less meat, and more unprocessed food.
I've been of sungazing lately, but I'm picking it back up.
This evening I enjoyed it again, and writing this down makes me realise how to do it. The way back to my my home I had this light weight feeling again. Indeed very nice. Note that it was clouded, but still it works, albeit not as fast as a uninterupted sun.
Now an then I write about these experiences on my website too.
But since there weren't any new breathroughs I left it out on the last posts.
Time to get some sleep now, "rise and shine" they say... I'll take that litteral
Love and peace for all,
Kars.
